Every time I sit here and think about what happened, I cry. I feel like I had no control. I dissect everything I did, and what I could’ve done to make the outcome different. Each moment passes through my mind and lingers. It burns like salt water in a wound. What was racing through my mind as this was happening? Fear, confusion, sadness, anger and numbness.The one thing that scares me is when I feel numb. I am so used to a million emotions going through me everyday,it scares me to death when I am numb. I can’t honestly say I remember feeling this numb before. Hopefully this will go away soon.